Doubts...

Just 3 more days before I start my vegetarian diet.

Today I am feeling doubtful.  What if I can't keep this? Temptations? Guilt?

With every new decision, the fear of not been able to accomplish what one is set to do can become a little scary.  I have cut down the amount of meat ingested these past days.  I am having doubts vegetarianism is for me, I enjoy variety in what I cook with and eat.  I am not craving the meats but I am thinking ahead of all the family gatherings, my mom's traditional cooking, the smells of food....

Yesterday my younger sister offered me steak strambolli.  It smelled like heaven!  But I didn't crave it.  I am giving myself points.  My purpose and will stand strong.  I passed the first temptation test.  What seems to help is the reality of animal cruelty.  Thinking where that piece of meat came from, how it was raised and was there any mistreatment and abuse?

I am only human.  Mistakes are expected.  My attitude is go as far as you can, do what works and feels good to you.  There are small farmers who raise their animals in a humane way.  Maybe a solution is to buy from them.  Remember we are all part of the food chain.

This is my jounal for a better me,

Maddy